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Ohhhhhhhh.

I don't want to let everybody down and I know if I show this all to Daddy he'll just get more upset ... but isn't it being a little bit dishonest not to?? And I guess if Finlay's away from them, then ... then that's for the better, so maybe he won't get mad at all. But if I do show him, he might say that the cruise is off, and I can't tell everybody that after I just got their hopes up again ... !!

I think ... I think maybe I'll ask Lady Erana's advice, again. She's really smart about all these sorts of things, and she's been so nice about listening to me for everything.

I just really don't want to keep thinking of this alone ... !! And I don't want to let people down. Ian would probably say I ought to tell Daddy, too, but I don't know ... I don't think Ian really knows what Daddy would do. I know better than he does, and Lady Erana knows Daddy, too. Ian just doesn't know Daddy well enough yet, and he'd think that Daddy would let things go on, even though I know he wouldn't ...

I guess ... I guess I'll ask her then!!